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Post by shane. on Apr 8, 2011 1:32:11 GMT -5
-sighs silently, trails after him; tugs on his shirt sleeve to let him know that she's following him so that he could tell her to bugger off if he wanted to-
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Post by hunter. on Apr 8, 2011 1:35:03 GMT -5
-stops and turns to face her- Shane, go to dinner..I'm not hungry...i had a decent sized lunch that I have to work off..
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Post by shane. on Apr 8, 2011 1:40:35 GMT -5
You didn't eat lunch .. I was there the whole time the cafe was open for lunch .. I'm not stupid Hunter. -eyes widen at how much she'd just said and the fact that she'd said it out loud, but she was getting annoyed that he tried to lie to her; shakes her head, mouths "Whatever."; turns and walks away from him but doesn't walk to the cafe goes out to the gardens instead-
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Post by hunter. on Apr 8, 2011 1:44:23 GMT -5
-eyes widen about how much she just said out loud, goes after her- Shane wait...-follows her to the gardens and catches up with her, touches her shoulder gently- I'm sorry..I don't think you're stupid and I shouldn't have lied I just..can't go to dinner..i'm not hungry..and they'll..make me..
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Post by shane. on Apr 8, 2011 1:50:27 GMT -5
What, they'll make you eat? -turns to look at him- What's so wrong with eating? You need to eat Hunter, you could die if you don't. And like I've implied, you're kind of perfect, there's nothing wrong with you physically. If we're going to be completely honest you could probably get into any girls bed that you wanted. You're attractive Hunter, so why are you doing this to yourself? -she'd read up on selective mutism when she'd first heard the term, she knew that under certain circumstances someone suffering from it could regain their speech but she honestly never thought it'd happen to her, she knew that now she was fine with hunter but that didn't mean she'd be able to talk with anyone else-
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Post by hunter. on Apr 8, 2011 1:57:59 GMT -5
I'm far from perfect Shane. And what's wrong with it is it'll go straight to these -grabs his love handles through his hoodie although they're not as easy to grab as they used to be, looks at her- Why are you saying these things Shane? I'm not..anything..i'm just..me..and me isn't good enough. I don't know why you'd think I'm..any good..and I've already gotten.. -stops himself when he starts going into the getting into any girls bed part, looks at her wishing she could understand that he just can't help it, looks at her with pain in his bootyful green eyes-
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Post by shane. on Apr 8, 2011 2:06:22 GMT -5
Because you've helped me Hunter, you've helped me open up and FUCKING HELL, I'm talking. I haven't talked in six months! And then you walk in and BAM! Here I am. Sometimes it's good to have friends who can tell you that you don't need to change, who you are is perfect. So what if you have love handles, which by the way you don't, but even if you did, it's a part of you that you should love, that someone you're with should love. I have scars Hunter, physical and emotional scars that I'm never getting rid of, no one is going to want me Hunter, but you .. People are going to want you, so I just, it makes no sense. -runs her tongue over her lips trying to wet them, her throat getting dry the longer she talks since it's been a while- I feel sorry for you, because you obviously thought that sleeping with someone would help make you feel better. I feel sorry for you because you shouldn't have to even think that. But mostly I feel sorry that you don't see what everyone else sees when they look at you. -even when her voice is raised it's barely above a whisper, but the anger is there ever present, she just wanted him to get it-
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Post by hunter. on Apr 8, 2011 2:12:14 GMT -5
I don't need people feeling sorry for me Shane. And my own family doesn't love me so how can I love myself? It's because I'm like this that they don't love me. -looks at her- And what about you? You shouldn't have to clam up and not talk to people and yet you do, it's the same thing with me and food, everything you just said to me I could say to you too Shane, but you obviously knew that or you wouldn't have said it to me in the first place.
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Post by shane. on Apr 8, 2011 2:16:56 GMT -5
I was raped by someone who I thought loved me Hunter. I told him I wanted to wait .. I was a virgin. He told me he understood that it was fine. But it wasn't, it just wasn't. He called me over to his house for a movie date, but his parents weren't home. He tied me up, and raped me. Stole my virginity and didn't even care, he laughed in my face as I cried and screamed and no one fucking cared, Hunter, no one cared to come and help me. He fucking carved me, marked me for the rest of my life, I have to live with his fucking brand, with reminders of what happened to me. He didn't use a condom, I ended up getting pregnant and getting an abortion that no one knows about or cared enough to notice. So don't you dare fucking compare what happened with me, to you feeling fat! -turns on her heel and starts to walk away from him, tears brimming in her eyes-
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Post by hunter. on Apr 8, 2011 2:22:06 GMT -5
-takes it all in- Shane! -goes after her again, grabs her shoulder and spins her around and just wraps his arms around her pulling her in a close tight hug so she couldn't fight him on it, says quietly- I'm so sorry Shane I didn't know..
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Post by shane. on Apr 8, 2011 2:23:22 GMT -5
-brings her arms up to push him away, but doesn't have it in her; ends up wrapping her arms around him, and leaning in towards him; whispers out, a few tears slide down her cheek- No one does..
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Post by hunter. on Apr 8, 2011 2:26:39 GMT -5
-just holds her like that for a while before continuing- I just..can't help..the way I feel Shane..but..if it will make you feel better I..i'll go..to dinner..
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Post by shane. on Apr 8, 2011 2:32:00 GMT -5
You should go, but not for me .. You should go for you.. -pulls back a little to look at him- Don't let what other's think dictate how you feel about yourself because I've been there and done that and it sucks.
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Post by hunter. on Apr 8, 2011 2:35:09 GMT -5
I can't..go for me right now..maybe..I'll get to that point. And I just..can't help it, I guess that's kind've why I'm here in the first place innit? -makes a slight face- But I'll go..
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Post by shane. on Apr 8, 2011 2:40:25 GMT -5
-shakes her head a little- Maybe drink like a protein shake or something, so you're not really eating, but you're still getting the nutrients you need? -doesn't know if it has to do with the food being solid or not- Just, I can't go in there right now. -wipes at her eyes as she pulls back from the hug- So you could lie to me and say you ate and I wouldn't know up from down, but I'm gonna keep pushing you and don't even think I'm letting you near the fitness room come tomorrow. You're going to get so sick of me and the fact that you've got me talking to you. -lets out a dry laugh- You remind me of my best friend back home which is probably why this seems easy. -means the opening up to him, even though she hadn't been able to do so with her best friend-
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