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Post by ander. on Apr 11, 2011 23:04:30 GMT -5
I have a problem, Hunter. I thought that was obvious .. -sets the photos on his bedside table, some of some friends and family but has more with shane some from when her hair was dark brown, some when it was light brown, and some with the current color she's got going; then turns to look at the other male- It bubbles up and I can't control it .. I'd been trying to suppress it, not let it come out because I wanted to be a better person for her. I had the intentions of just being the normal boyfriend the night it happened, but it just .. I snapped. -looks down, makes a face; then looks up at him again- So .. you're a match?
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Post by hunter. on Apr 11, 2011 23:08:45 GMT -5
-nods slowly- My sister and I were tested, I thought it wouldn't hurt but I didn't..actually think I'd be one..I hoped but now..I mean I'm glad I am but..I only have so long to put on..-says disgustedly- 35 pounds or they can't do it..and I..know I have a problem and it just..doesn't get better over night and..what if I take too long with this and I lose her?
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Post by ander. on Apr 11, 2011 23:11:21 GMT -5
All you really can do is try. Let me guess she didn't want to test you because she knows the weight limits? -presses his lips together- .. Do they .. Have they restarted her on Chemo yet? -
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Post by hunter. on Apr 11, 2011 23:18:21 GMT -5
-nods a bit- She was afraid of getting her hopes up and didn't want me tested..-looks at him and shakes his head- No I..she hasn't mentioned that at all actually..-sits up-
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Post by ander. on Apr 11, 2011 23:22:27 GMT -5
They're going to .. They have to if they plan on keeping her alive long enough to get the transplant since you're, uh, you know .. Otherwise she'll have less time to live and you'll have less time to gain the weight. -flips through the album to a part where she'd gone through chemo, gets up- It's not exactly the best look, but she's still Shane. -sits down next to him, shows him photos of the two from when shane started losing her hair, through the process, her with no hair, her with wigs, and finally when her hair started growing back- Just be prepared for it..
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Post by hunter. on Apr 12, 2011 7:31:05 GMT -5
-looks at the pictures- oh shit..-looks at the pictures then at him, kind've scared about all this, doesn't want to react the wrong way-
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Post by ander. on Apr 12, 2011 7:51:13 GMT -5
-stares down at how sickly she looks in the photos, then turns to look at hunter- That's if she doesn't opt out of it .. Knowing Shane she might. She got scarred that she'd never be able to have kids the first time because it can make you infertile, plus she was constantly sick while going through it. And no offense Hunter .. Your body issues with yourself are probably going to make her opt out out of fear that you'll leave her because if you can't see yourself the way she sees you, she's going to wonder how you'd be able to stay with her and love her when she looks like that.
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Post by hunter. on Apr 12, 2011 11:04:24 GMT -5
-rubs his face- it's not..my fault I'm like this I can't help it. I don't know..how to just snap out of it. And she's beautiful no matter what she looks like..she's still Shane. -sighs- this is just one big..jumble of problems
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Post by ander. on Apr 12, 2011 11:24:56 GMT -5
I get that, trust me .. I do.. -chews on his lip, getting the whole it's how i am thing because of his own problem and what he did to shane; smiles a little at that comment- Yeah, yeah she is. That's why I was with her the whole time she was going through it the first time .. Just promise to remind her that every day because sometimes she forgets. -hesitantly reaches out and places a hand on his shoulder in an attempt to be there for him but isn't sure how he's gonna take it- I'm not going to lie and say it's easy because it's not. You're going to be watching her change, she's gonna get depressed and she might lose her sex drive .. I don't know if you guys are, y'know, and I don't really want to so I just thought I'd throw it out there.
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Post by hunter. on Apr 12, 2011 11:32:20 GMT -5
Well we're not but thanks..-rubs his face- its just hard knowing her life is literally in my hands and that..now I have a deadline to get better..its a lot of prerssure
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Post by ander. on Apr 12, 2011 11:36:33 GMT -5
-nods slowly- I can't imagine having what you do and being the one who can save her.. I mean, I always wanted too.. I can physically do it, I'm healthy in that respect. It must be really difficult, mate..
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Post by hunter. on Apr 12, 2011 11:48:53 GMT -5
Yeah..-nods slowly- and to top it off we'd have to go home to do it..I'm not old enought to be a donor here
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Post by ander. on Apr 12, 2011 11:54:30 GMT -5
Well you still need parental consent over there.. But it's not that bad, you'll be able to leave and come back here the next day.. -nods- She'll have to stay for a few days at least though.
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Post by hunter. on Apr 12, 2011 12:19:05 GMT -5
Oh joyy -looks at him when he hears the last part- what do you mean a few days? I'm not leaving her there by herself..
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Post by ander. on Apr 12, 2011 12:41:21 GMT -5
You're going to have to .. This place isn't going to let you stay there, unless you're already out of here by then.. -makes a face- When she ended up in the hospital while she was in the other facility they weren't pleased about her being in the hospital .. Danny and Katie told me about it. -doesn't know that shane had never told hunter about being in another facility even though she told emma-
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